At the time of this posting I am probably getting ready to board my flight down to San Francisco. From there I will be headed to Seoul, South Korea followed immediately by my flight to Bangkok, Thailand. To say the last week (and past few days in particular) have been a whirlwind would not be doing me justice.
Between trying to see all of the people in my life who will not be venturing across the world with me, and tying up countless loose ends, I am ready to hop on a plane and just sit. For a long, long time!
As I’ve been thinking about my imminent departure, I’ve realized that this could be labeled a defining moment in my life. You know, one of those moments where you make a decision that you know will effect how you live the rest of your life.
I am almost ashamed to say that I haven’t had many of those in my life. As I have written in the past, my life has been pretty easy. I’ve always known what’d be next.
Well I have no clue what is next.
I am arriving in Bangkok at midnight on Wednesday/Thursday and don’t know where I will be staying or going from there. This is the coolest and most terrifying thing I have ever done.
As scary as it is though (my stomach has been in knots for the last few days), I didn’t have much of a choice. Had I said no, rather than yes, I would have always wondered “what if?” What if I had went to Thailand to pursue my dreams? What if I hadn’t left my job? What if I failed to take risks when opportunities presented themselves? Then I would be like 95% of the people in the world who don’t go after their dreams.
I couldn’t live with that. Life will present you with opportunities to make a decisions that will define how you live and what you do. Maybe it will come in the form of a new job opportunity? Perhaps it is a decision to leave a current job with no plans for the future. At one point of another, you will have a tough decision to make, and it will probably scare the crap out of you.
As difficult as it is, learn to embrace the change and I promise you that you will be better off for it. The only things that I regret in life, are the things that I didn’t do. For instance, when I had the opportunity to study abroad during college, I didn’t take it. There really weren’t any insurmountable reasons why I couldn’t have, it was just easier not to. Looking back, I feel like that is one of the biggest things that has led me down my current path; I guess I am making up for the missed opportunity! Or how about the time earlier this year when I had the chance to learn how to sail, for free, in the Caribbean for three months. Instead, I decided to stay at a job that I knew I wasn’t happy with, and to this day I can’t believe I passed on the chance. Those are my regrets. I don’t think I will regret the decision to travel.
UPDATE: It is now 5:17am PST and I am sitting at gate E5 in PDX finishing up this post. To say that the feeling is surreal would be an understatement to say the least.
If you have been following Location 180 for awhile, you know how long I have been working towards this moment. It hasn’t been easy, but I’m proud to think about how far I have come. I’m proud that I am not a hypocrite, and I can’t wait to see whats in store for me over the coming weeks and months. As I mentioned in the last entry, I am hoping to get a few more posts written while in transit about both my packing list, as well as a recap of everything that happened in 2009.
Again, I also wanted to thank you for sticking with me over the past week, as I know I have deviated from my posting schedule. To be honest, preparing to leave kicked my ass more than I ever expected it to, but now that everything is taken care of I find myself in a state of groggy relaxation (also forgive me if this post makes no sense, as I said, it is WAY earlier than I am used to being awake!).
Here’s to a fantastic 2010 that already holds more promise than any year in recent memory!